Thoughts

I have things I want to say but I dont feel like blogging about it.  Im at a point in my life that I just am shutting the world out and am bottling my thoughts and such inside of me.  All I can say is that Im subbing four days again this week....I have a meeting about Belize tomorrow and Saturday I am going to a wedding in Fort Wayne.  Please just pray for me. Thanks

11 yrs ago

11 years ago I was in 8th grade sitting in computer class when another teacher came up to the computer teacher and told her that a plane hit a tower in NYC.  Then when I got to English, our teacher flipped on the t.v. as the second tower was getting hit.  Its so crazy to think about what I was doing and such while such a tragic thing happened to our nation.

Labor day I hung out with a couple from my church.  Tuesday I hung out with Meg.  Wed I subbed and then went to Axiom. Thursday I subbed and then went to choir.  Friday I did nothing and then I went downtown with CJ to look at old cars.  Saturday I hung out with Kinsey all day.  Sunday I went with Pastor Tim, two of his kids, and CJ to a camp to pick up some of the young girls in our church from camp.  I went to a meeting and ate a HUGE slice of a cake called Oreo cake and then went over to a couples house with CJ and our friend Libby to hang out with some people.  Yesterday I subbed in the morning and then hung out with Meg all day.  Meg, Tim and their three kids are seriously a HUGE part of my life!!  It really means a lot to me to have people in my life who love and care about me.

Running is okay. I think I am going to sign up for the Glass City Half again...this time I will run it with my friend Erin!!!  EEEK!  God and I are doing well.  I think I am going to go on a mission trip next summer :)  Cj and I are great.  We haven't had a fight yet and we have been going out for a little over two months now.

Clinging to hope

You guys it is September!!!  What the heck?!  The last few days of August was filled with finishing helping Meg get everything ready for the garage sale at her parents!!!!  That Friday evening I hung out with CJ and we were going to go bowling but ended up going to Steak N Shake.  Last weekend I went to watch Joel play soccer but he FREAKED. I ended up going to a worship thing that Saturday night. Sunday was church and then the mud pit with the youth group. Let's just say I was NASTY!  CJ and I were then invited over to Tim and Meg's to hang out with some other couples and eat pizza. It was a lot of fun!  Monday I babysat the Smelcer kiddos while their dad went to a baseball game and their mom was at work.    Tuesday I subbed. Wednesday I subbed. Thursday I hung out with Meg and then watched her kiddos.  Friday I went to a football game and then yesterday I hung out with my mom and then babysat.  Today I have church this morning but not sure what I am doing the rest of the day or even tomorrow.  

Can anyone tell me some stuff to do to tone my arms, legs, butt and stomach?  I seriously just need something NEW in my workouts.  I feel like I havent been seeing any results and I have been eating really decent.  *SIGH*  

I really dont have any friends here. I feel so lonely. I dont even know why having a blog is helping me. It just makes me feel even more depressed.  Blah.