Pondering Life

My life has been quite a blur lately. Weather is getting a bit better so I'm starting to run more outside.  Been busy with subbing, church choir Easter Play, Axiom, Roots, babysitting, tutoring. Sometimes I feel like I dont have any time for myself :( I so wanna go on a vacation or a road trip. I want a tattoo. I want to chop my hair off, pack a few bags and just move out West.  I so wish that I had a full-time teaching job. Last Wednesday I had a teaching interview for the fall. Ill hear more in the beginning of May.  I am crossing my fingers, toes, legs, arms and I laid it at the foot of the cross.  Been feeling very lonely lately. Mom is dating and she is never home between jobs and him.  I totally have been feeling like an orphan a lot lately. I really dont have a lot of friends. Most of the girls I adore are all younger than me.  It really stinks.  Not really sure what else to write about. My life is very boring and life-less.