Crazy/fun/happy

This past week has been SO crazy!!!
Sunday-church/hung out with friends.
Monday-subbed for Kindergarten!!
Tuesday-Babysat
Wednesday-Church
Thursday-babysat
Yesterday- I drove down to Cbus to meet/hangout/grab lunch with Ruth aka RedsoxWife. It was so fun!! This was my first time meeting a fellow blogger. It was great to talk about life, teaching, families, and get to meet each other!! I got to meet little D and omygoodness I so fell in love with him!! He is so adorable!! I def. want to meet up with Ruth again!!!

Today I am helping with the Children's Christmas Program, babysitting and who knows what else!!I know tomorrow I am going to church and then to a hayride!!! Whoo!!!

Okay, so I dont know if I have spoken a lot about my faith but I really want to talk about it today. I am a Christian, I follow the Lord. I have been saved by Jesus Christ and he has forgiven me of my sins. He has washed me clean/whole. I believe in the Bible, his truth and his Word. I have asked Jesus into my heart almost 7 years ago. Oct. 28th, 2004 is when I became 'born' again. I am so in love with my Father. He has gotten me through so much in my life-college, parents getting sick, losing my dad and my grandpa, getting into the Teaching Program, my mission trip in NJ, student teaching, leading bible studies, graduating college. I loving serving the Lord and helping kids/youth grow in their walks in the Lord. If you have any questions, you are more than welcomed to ask them or anything!! I am so in love with God, and I seriously dont know where I would be today if I didnt have him in my life!!

John 3:16-God so loved the World that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes shall not perish but have eternal life.

Healing in your hands

Today is beautiful. The sun is shining. I got to sleep past 5:30 today--till 815!! I got to play with kids for 2 WHOLE hours today. I got to hear Christmas music for 2 hours this morning* my fave :) * I can finally wear my contacts again after 3 weeks without them.

This week has been rough. I am PMSing. I have eaten so many sweets this week-Tues, Wed and last night. I barely ever eat sweets and I have been inhaling them like they are going to go out of style. I have been running, but its been hard. My legs feel so tired, so weak. I just feel so heavy, so fat when I run. I need a running buddy. Wish I could find one here in Ohio.

I really really miss my dad right now. I know that I am grateful that he isn't in pain from his cancer, but at the same time, I miss him. It is hard to see my friends with their dads, little girls with their dads. I just wish I could get a dad hug, dad advice, dad love. It really sucks.

I went to a funeral on Tuesday for a sweet little 10 month old baby girl name Madison. My friend Hannah sang this song called Healing in Your Hands. I know that one day, I will heal from this. I have God's love, his strength, his beauty and grace. I posted the words underneath. Just let them really go deep into your soul. Enjoy. Happy Sat!!

No mountain, no valley, no gain or loss we know
could keep us from Your love
No sickness, no secret, no chain is strong enough
to keep us from Your love
to keep us from Your love

How high, how wide
No matter where I am, healing is in Your hands
How deep, How strong,
And now by Your grace I stand, healing is in Your hands

Our present, our future, our past is in Your hands
We're covered by Your blood
We're covered by Your blood

How high, How wide
no matter where I am, healing is in Your hands
How deep, How strong
And now by Your grace I stand, healing is in Your hands

In all things, we know that.
We are more than conquerors.
You keep us by your love.
You keep us by your love.

Is anyone out there?

I feel like noone reads my blog anymore. Do I need to do something weekly-a triple tangent, a weekly recipe, a weekly workout recap, a giveaway..what do I need to do in order to attract people to comment, to read my blogs? I feel like lately I have been writing this just for myself. I know that I am real in my posts, but its hard for me to find the words to say things. I am not good at writing letters to people, or journal, or story telling/writing. I really am trying.

Subbing today for a 3rd grade teacher this afternoon. Im tired. Im cold. My fingers are so stiff.

I'll see you when I get to heaven

Madison Grace..You were so beautiful. I loved your little smile, you lit up a room when anyone walked in there with you. You were only 10 months old, but I knew the Lord would use you in mighty ways. My heart is heavy for your mommy, your daddy, your brothers Zach and Noah. My heart breaks for little Mackenzie, I'm sure it will be hard for her to lose her baby sister. Its hard for me to watch your aunts Hannah and Grace feel grieve,and especially to watch your uncle Eli who would have protected you until you got married. I pray for your family Madison, that they feel the Lord's comfort, that they cling to you in this time of loss. I pray that they feel your presence, that they can eventually realize that this is a time to trust you, that this was your plan for baby Madison. I am quite jealous that she is already in Heaven with you Heavenly Father, but I know that one day soon I will see her again.

Please pray for this family--Charity and Shawn at the parents. Naamam, Eli, Grace, Hannah, Jacob, Mark, Danielle, Delilah and her husband are going to miss her and so will her grandparents. Pray for comfort, love, peace in this difficult season. Thank you

Rain rain go away!!

Have you ever felt like your body just feels completely EXHAUSTED?! Mine is like drained.
Sunday-Church, went dress shopping with a few girls, went to a friend's house.
Monday-RAN, half day of subbing in 3rd, then went to dinner with a friend.
Tuesday-full day of subbing in PE gym class, then did random workout things
Yesterday-half day in Special ed, ran, church
Today-took 3 kids to school, ran, going to have lunch with a friend, mting tonight.
Tomorrow-All I know is that I am baking cookies, working out, and seeing a homecoming parade!!
Saturday-christmas program 10-12, and going to grandmas!! Sunday I get to see my brother for his birthday!!!

I am TIRED from waking up at 530 all week. I hurt. My body is like DONE with running, but I need it to keep going. I need to keep running. I can do about 3 1/2 miles. UGH I seriously am like wanting to KILL Myself for signing up for a half in April. I feel like I cant do it. UGH

Fun things coming up in October:
4th-brother's 21st
7th-hayride/bonfire
15th-parents annvi.
16th-dad's birthday
21st-possibly going to cp with a group of friends
22nd-23rd-possibly going to cincy to see my best friends
28th-hayride/bonfire with friends in MI

Hopefully more subbing days(have had 4!) more running, baking(send me some FUN recipes I want to do more fun creative ideas!) and hopefully some dinner dates with some young ladies!!!

Anything fun you looking forward to in October?!

I want.....

Frozen Yogurt
a really nice run
a boyfriend
a steady income
lunch
a baby
pumpkin spice latte
pancakes
Jesus to come
a friend to hang out with

cant a girl just once get something that she desires?

Llama Drama

Okay so this is gonna be a bullet point blog...just hang tight.
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530AM-alarm goes off. turn on computer and type in my password with eyes shut.
537AM-pull up website i need to see if they need substitutes for the day.
0618AM-a position flew on the screen and i grabbed it. jr high. said title 2.
0655AM-out the door and driving to the school. school starts at 730.
710AM-pull in. walk into office. sign in.
get into the classroom and read the teacher's sub letter. Mouth flies OPEN. I am teaching 5 Social studies classes. 7th grade-2 of them. 8th grade- 3 of them. Read plan and figured well hey this will be a really easy day.
730-a teacher from the team comes in, introduces himself to me(he was there at the building when I was in jr high hahah) and tells me that my first period will be my hardest class for the day. I swallow and say okay.
745-bell rings and students start to come in. All of a sudden I have 6 behavior sheets being handed to me, wanting to be filled out. Get told I have to rate their behaviors/actions during class and then give it back to them at the end of class.
HR/1st Period-I wanted to CRY. Was called small fry, Hispanic. Boys wouldnt listen to me. Things were falling around the room. No one would really listen to my directions. I sent two boys to the office-one was throwing things, being disrespectful, and the other one was telling me off. I got mocked.
2nd period-PRAISE the LORD. Had a few chatty students, but they listened and were quiet when I told them.
3rd-They were angels. They listened and got their work out.
4th-team planning
5th-planning period. read my book I brought
6th-lunch. ate my lunch and then read.
7th period-Students start to come in. Was told they have AP(study hall till 1) I let them have it until 1255. They were getting really noisy and out of hand. I take attendance. Was told that a girl was in the hall and was always late. I go out the door, see her, and call her in. She comes in. She goes to the back of the room and sits at the table and not her desk. I tell her she needs to be in her desk. She said no. I said we all are sitting at our desks today. She argues with me. I tell her that she needs to do what I say. She tells me to F*** off. I about CRIED. I told her that we dont speak that like in this classroom and was told to go to the office. I take attendance. Every student is laughing while I am saying names. Uh hello it is NOT my fault your mother gave you THE hardest name EVER to pronounce. I didnt go to school to pronounce names. I went to be a teacher! Gave them their assignments. I seriously felt like every 4 minutes I was telling someone to be quiet, to turn around to do their work. Well this one student started to complain about the door being open. I turned off the fan because they were loud and told them they didnt get the fan because they werent be quiet. This girl started to whine and try to leave. I said sorry no. She then starts to complain about her cough, her throat. She then starts to spray nasal stuff in her nose. I told her they werent allowed to have medicine in school. Well then a student starts to yell at her for having it, and next thing I knoew she tells the boy to shut up. I said we dont say that in this classroom. She was bugged again, and then said shut up to the boy once again. I told her that it was rude to say that and to get back to her work. She then told me to shut up. I sent her to the office. 15 minutes later, class is over, they are sitting at their desks with no privilege to talk or do anything. Just to sit there.
8th period-they were a little chatty, but by the time it hit 230 I was done. I had a headache. My body hurt. I wanted to cry, sleep, scream, and just go home. Needless to say I had such a crazy day with junior highers. I seriously give mad props to people who teach/have taught junior high/high schoolers. I got annoyed with their little attitudes, their dumb little attitude noise, being rude, not listening. I just wanted to shake them!! I will probably sub at that school again, but next time Im bringing headache medicine, and a longer book to read. When they were doing their review questions, I read my book. I didnt want to be BORED. All I gotta say is that, the Lord seriously got me through that day. If I didnt pray throughout today, I probably would have flipped a lid during 7th period. O and I was told I was mean. Well Im glad. Someone has to lay the law down to you ladies and gents.