Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Will someone come rub my back or play with my hair?

Current issues:  I haven't slept very well the past 10 days. Its almost like my body is boycotting sleep or something? I dont know but it is quite annoying.  The little girl I am babysitting today is teething and she is down for her nap till 3. I am praying, crossing my fingers and toes that she naps today because if she doesn't it is going to be a LONG day for me today :/

Hip Hip Hooray!  I dont have to take my Reading Endorsement in the Fall because Ohio decided to change the requirements again.  I am also really PUMPED for this weekend....I am attending a conference in IL this weekend-an all girl conference and I am sooo excited to see what the Lord does in my life this weekend.  I am going to learn to Shine.  I am seeking the Lord's face and I am going to let him do ANYTHING He wants to do in my life.  I have NO expectations for this weekend, but that is good. I am letting chains down and letting him transform me and my walk with Him :)

Nothing yet on the teaching field :/  I am trying to be patient but it is VERY hard.  I just want the job that I went to college for.

Thursday, April 4, 2013

There's a Fire in my soul

Feelings: I'm missing dad, college, friends, the warmth from the sun, love.  I have lots of emotions going on this week. I've experienced some 'first' in my life and I honestly don't like it.  I just want to be living the dream the Lord has for me.  It is hard to be in this weird "season" in my life and to not be married, have my career job and to have a baby on the way.

Stressing about: school-OSU I can only take two classes this summer, and then another one in the fall, and the last class I will need is still up in the air when I can take it.  So on TOP of four classes I'll be taking in the fall thru UT, I'll  be also taking one class thru OSU.  2 this summer, 5 in the fall and then one class floating through the air and not sure where it will land :/  UGH the stresses of being an adult.  I also haven't gotten any interviews yet and I just stinking want a teaching job.

Frustrated about: boys, friendships, what i'm suppose to do with my life, my self-esteem, and some other stuff in my life.

Grateful that: I have a part-time nanny job for the summer which will be nice taking 2 classes in a 7 week span.  I am pumped for July 23-30 when I will be in Belize on a mission trip and having an amazing time showing Jesus to this culture.  I love working with the youth group kiddos and even the children's church. I am so glad I get to be a part of these ministries. I am grateful for Elisa and Meg.  Even though they are like 8-10 years older than me, are married and have kiddos, they still spend time with me and pour encouragement and love into me.

Also, I am so stressed out, I have tension in my shoulders and I'm SOOO sore from the stress I have :/  Go away stress!! Sun come out and get WARM so I can run outside!!!