Monday, February 27, 2012

A set back

Last Monday I did spinning and then baked with one of the girls in my small group from youth!

Tuesday I worked out and then went to a meeting.

Wednesday I subbed half day, and then literally spent my day from 1230 till 9 in the church doing stuff for youth group and then youth group.

Thursday I worked out, subbed half day and then went to Toledo and grabbed dinner with a friend.

Friday I worked out and then spent the evening with a 9 yr old and a 5 yr old. It was fun.

Saturday I did spinning and then went to a wedding for some college friends. It was so great seeing old friends and catch up on life!

So....I have an issue. I think I am getting shin splints again. I have been taking it easy on this whole running thing. I dont want my shin splints to start up again. So I am going to bike again today and then I am going to try to run a little tomorrow. I do need to get my mileage up. I can run 5 miles, but it needs to be up to 8 this week :( I also have 8 weeks yesterday till my half marathon. UGH!! I am now till then NOT getting any sweets or sugars. Lets see if I can do it!!!

So far it looks like I am going to the church today to help the youth pastors wife do some stuff for the youth group.

Monday, February 20, 2012

Embrace Grace

Last week I subbed 4 days. Everyday but Tuesday. I can do 5 miles on the treadmill, but its getting harder to running the whole miles. I get cramps in my sides and feel so breathless.

Monday I subbed Music. Wednesday was high school Biology. Thursday and Friday was Music. Thursday I was called a liar, a fatso, got a tongue stuck out at me, and then also had a boy say he was going to kick my a$$. O it was lovely!!

I finally experienced frozen yogurt-got it Sat. and let me tell you I am ADDICTED!! I also saw The Vow last night. It wasnt too bad.

I really am working on be confident and working on myself. To not be so hard on myself. To not be a jerk to myself or to be so negative. I am going to need alot of grace and love from Jesus but I know he can help me.

This week I have nothing going on except a meeting tomorrow, youth group on Wednesday, dinner date on Thursday and going to a wedding on Saturday.

Monday, February 13, 2012

Do I really have to put a title on here?

I am not sure who reads my blog anymore. I honestly feel like I am just writing this for myself most of the time.

Lately I have been feeling really really lonely. I am home alone basically every evening. I cook dinner for myself every night. I feel like I have a roomie that is never home, and yet its my mom whom I live with and I dont pay rent. Even at church, which I have been going there since 2004, I feel lonely. Everyone that is my age is married and majority of them are now trying to pop out kiddos or have one. I really dont want pity from anyone. I just feel like I dont belong anywhere. I feel as if I am just floating in space. Yes I have ministries I help out with, but other than that I dont have a group I can be real with. I also feel really 'stuck' in my walk with the Lord. I just dont feel like I can connect with him. I feel like Im not good enough to have his love right now. I feel like I am falling through cracks. I wish that I had someone who really cared for me.

I ran 4 miles today....I subbed half day for a music to reading and more laundry

Saturday, February 11, 2012

What a week!

Sunday I went to a Superbowl party at my friends and basically played with a baby and ate so much food!

Monday I subbed for a high school, ran 4 miles and then passed out in my bed!

Tuesday I worked out and hung out at the house.

Wednesday I worked out, baked, picked up a youth girl from school, dentist, and church.

Thursday I subbed for 4th grade--where I was told to try to get a teaching job in the North Pole so I can teach Santa's helpers, go to Jupiter to teach the aliens, or Texas! haha I then went to a baby shower and watched Grey's.

Yesterday I ran 4 miles!! cleaned and then went to a basketball game to watch a few girls I know do a biddy cheer thing during the half time.

Today I am helping doing some painting and then going over to a friends house to talk to her about possibly starting to sell 31 products!!

This week I have discovered GREEK on ABC Family and let me see I am IN love with it :)

Have a great weekend :)

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Refueling the body

Well hello :)

I was set to go for 5 miles today, and I only made it one mile. My nose was seriously SOO stuffed up I couldnt breathe. I seriously was like wheezing so I cut it to one mile and then did 7 miles on the bike. I will do my 5 miles on Monday.

I have a I know that I am going to HAVE to take something during my half marathon but what? Also, remember I am a very poor post-college person who is a substitute teacher so what can I use that is cheap?

Thursday, February 2, 2012

It's been a long time....

Today is three years since my dad died. O man I miss him. His hugs, his laugh, his smile, how smart he was. How patient he was with me, even if he did eventually get mad. How protective he was of me. Cant believe three years ago I got that call at 2:22 on that Monday from my mom saying my dad died at home. Please pray for me. I am having a really hard time with it this week.

Subbed Tuesday and yesterday. Subbing a half day tomorrow. still have my DUMB cough.

Okay, need to be honest. The past three days I have eaten sweets. I feel UGLY, fat, gross. Anyone have any TIPS on how I can control it? I have done it before, but I basically CUT it out of my diet. Like I didnt eat ANYTHING sweet for a whole summer and lost like 10 pounds. IDK if I should try that again. I just feel so blah lately.