Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Pondering Life

My life has been quite a blur lately. Weather is getting a bit better so I'm starting to run more outside.  Been busy with subbing, church choir Easter Play, Axiom, Roots, babysitting, tutoring. Sometimes I feel like I dont have any time for myself :( I so wanna go on a vacation or a road trip. I want a tattoo. I want to chop my hair off, pack a few bags and just move out West.  I so wish that I had a full-time teaching job. Last Wednesday I had a teaching interview for the fall. Ill hear more in the beginning of May.  I am crossing my fingers, toes, legs, arms and I laid it at the foot of the cross.  Been feeling very lonely lately. Mom is dating and she is never home between jobs and him.  I totally have been feeling like an orphan a lot lately. I really dont have a lot of friends. Most of the girls I adore are all younger than me.  It really stinks.  Not really sure what else to write about. My life is very boring and life-less.

Sunday, February 9, 2014

My life

I am sorry I took such a long long break.  Rest of Sept and Oct was spent housesitting, subbing, running, and trying to enjoy life.  

November was busy with subbing, youth group stuff and church things.  December I subbed 12 days, shopped, baked, hung out with friends and enjoyed the holidays.  

January I dealt with only subbing 9 days, a million inches of snow/ice/below zero temperatures and so many snow days I thought I was going insane.  

So far this month Ive subbed, tried to work out, babysat and that is about it.  Im tired of snow, cold weather, ice, shoveling, and feeling like a hermit.

I honestly may start blogging more.  I am starting to feel like I dont have any friends. I feel lost. I still love Jesus but I am tired of feeling sad/depressed.  I am losing my appetite and my motivation to do anything.  Heck I would LOVE to be able to move out of my moms and to have my own classroom but at this rate I feel like Ill never get it.