Monday, November 28, 2011

I think....

Im done with eat sweets, breads and any sorts of things that are yummy and NOT good for you.

I suck at this whole try to tone up and lose some weight.

Im nervous to go on a date on Saturday.

I really want a real teaching job soon because Im done with the whole subbing thing.

I really want to see friends from college or RedSoxWife ;)

Im really excited that in 6 days it is my 24th birthday :)

Friday, November 25, 2011

No Shopping for me

This week has been crazy!!! Monday and Tuesday I babysat a 4 yr old girl name Anna. Wednesday I went down to my grandmas with my mom. Before that she decided to go shopping. Needless to say I wanted to RIP MY HAIR OUT because I wasnt in one of my moods to shop haha. Yesterday I ate so much food Im surprised I woke up this morning haha.

I finally saw Breaking Dawn last night..and let me say this---I would NEVER let my sister-in-law cut me open to get the baby out!! If you havent watched it yet, sorry I just said that, but boy that is the TRUTH!!

Today I am going to a wedding for a high school friend and of course working out here. Just gotta wait for the gym to open!!

Sooo my body woke me up yesterday AND today at 540. SERIOUSLY?! Why can I NEVER sleep in anymore?! :( I dont have a kid so its not like any other human is wanting my attention haha

9 days till my birthday :)

Im hoping I get to see the LOVELY Ruth aka Redsoxwife soon :)

I am going on a date next Saturday.....first date EVER in my life. Wow I wanna throw up and I still have 8 days till it happens! haha

Monday, November 21, 2011

Awake my soul and sing

Things I'm thankful for:

a. braham Justice whom I got to meet and hold last night :)
b. rother whom I get to see on Thursday :)
c. offee
d. evos
e. xpressions
f. riendship
g. race
h. ugs from dads who love me like a daughter
i. nspiration
j. esus
k. ids
l. aughter
m. om and dad
n. aps
o. il changes
p. rayer
q. uilts
r. oots and all the little rugrats I teach Jesus to
s. unshine
t. v. (Biggest Loser, Parenthood, Last Man Standing, Up all Night, Grey's, Degrassi and other shows that will come back in Jan :))
u. niqueness
v. egetables
w. ater for washing away my feelings
x. marks the spot treasure hunts
y. ou
z. oo lights that I really wanna see

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Im a failure

I ate dessert pizza and a few cinnamon rolls at CiCi's pizza last night....Im such a failure. I dont want to admit this, but apparently I really really suck at trying to eat well. WHY cant I lose weight? I really need to stop eating carbs and sweets so that I can lose some weight.

Friday, November 18, 2011

His Mercy is New Each day

I am thankful for :

The Lord---He died on the cross for me. He washed away my sins. He made me whole again. He gives me new mercies and grace each day.

My friends--They give me love, laughter, grace, encouragement.

My family--They might not always agree with me, but they love me.

My health--That I am able to run, to work, to be able to do whatever I want.

A job--Yes some days I dont know what my schedule may be like, or what I'm getting myself into, but subbing is something.

My church family--They are there for me each moment--the good and the bad.





My car

I could go on, but those are some of the things I am so grateful for. I really am so thankful for everything that the Lord has placed into my life.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

I am thankful

This past weekend I was a chaperon for a youth group trip. I def. want to just say that I am so excited that I got to go. Yes the girls in my room were handful, but its okay. I had three girls who were in my family and they all came to the Lord on Friday evening. I am so excited to think that I lead these girls to the Lord.

I failed on the sweets this last week. I ate some ice cream last Friday. This week I failed too. I ate a piece of cheesecake on Tues. I am JUST so ashamed of myself. I really want to just beat myself up.

This week I have subbed three times so far, and Im hoping that I get to sub tomorrow!! This weekend I am going to an Africa childrens concert tomorrow and then babysitting all day on Saturday!! WHoo!!!

O and I got a gym membership today!! Its for a year!! WHOO!!! i cant wait to go into a gym and workout!!! Yeah!!!

O and by the way I am really doing not too bad with my walk with the Lord. I can really tell that being back here in Sandusky is really the plan that the Lord has for me right now. I am glad now. I still hate living at home, but I am def. ready to move out.

O and Im having boy drama--like 3 different boys in my life. If you wanna know, leave me a comment and I'll let you know in an email.

I love you all lovely readers :)

Thursday, November 10, 2011

This girl...

Just ran ONE mile in 9ish minutes!! A cold, windy, hard to breath run but needless to say I cut 2 minutes off of my mile :) yay Im so proud of myself

I subbed three days this week. I babysat this morning, babysitting for an hour after my dentist appt. I baked today. I just feel SOO proud of myself!! I figured I would share my awesome news with you all :)

This weekend Im going to Cbus to help chaperon a youth group trip!!

O and yay my friend Tona had her baby yesterday :) On her hubbys birthday :) What a sweet birthday present :)

Monday, November 7, 2011

Give me faith Lord

Wow that weekend FLEW by!! It was a fun but crazy one!! Friday I subbed for 5th grade and was called a unicorn!!! If you want the story, leave a comment and Ill let you know it! After school, I went over to my friends Amanda's house! We made dinner, baked brownies(yes I ate brownies with a Klondike bar so sue me!!) watched two movies, and played Disney Channel Scene it!! I needed that evening for real!!

Saturday-Christmas program practice, chilled in the church, grabbed lunch with a youth student, ran, and watched all three of the Twilight movies that evening!!

Yesterday-church, grabbed Mexican with a friend, relaxed, and then went over to a friends house for the evening after an hour of worship!! Love spending time with my Lord and Savior!!

Today I subbed for music. O my gosh it was insane!! The teacher didnt leave a lesson plan, so we basically watched movies all day. HAHA Im a good sub ;)

So on Friday I ate brownies and ice cream and then on Sat I ate some candy. SO basically since I have done my whole no eating sugar for 6 months, I have failed 3 time so far :( Someone PLEASE keep me in check for real!!

This week is hopefully full of date with a friend on on Thurs..and baking like a machine for this weekend! This weekend I am going to Cbus to help chaperone the youth groups trip for a convention. This will be interesting--girls in my room, no sleep, riding a van...hopefully I will have pictures to show of this weekend!!

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Why am I the one to have this life?

Sometimes my life isn't fair. Yes I have a great relationship with the Lord, but right now I just dont understand things right now.

1. Why did God take away my dad 2 years, 8 months and 1 day ago? I still dont understand why He did it. It is slowly getting easier without him, but right now I just want a daddy hug.
2. Why does my mom have to work two jobs and can barely make ends meet? Its not fair. I feel like life hates her. She cant seem to have anything go well for her. I just wish she could get a sweet legit job and not have to work so much and make all the money she needs.
3. Why cant our roof get fixed? She doesnt have the money to pay for it, and it isnt going to get covered :( I just wish that something good would go for her. Im tired of watching her struggle, things fall apart, her not get what she needs/wants. I cant help her and it is driving me insane. I want to help her so badly, but I cant.

I wish the Lord would bless me with a big girl teaching job. I need the money so badly right now. I do get so sub days(3 this week) and I have started tutoring a little girl, but I need more. IDK what to do. I just wanna move out, but cant afford it. I wish I had a normal family, but I dont. I see all of my friends with both of their parents, great lives, and my life just completely sucks.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Need some fresh new ideas

Hello friends :) Today was seriously such a great and beautiful fall day!!! Instead of just a half day from 12-4 today, I got to sub a half morning and then a half afternoon. It was so fun. Gifted intervention this morning, and then 5th grade math. O boy I was teaching arrays, multiplication, division, fact families. Good thing I know how to read, and know how to do most of this stuff already!!! At least it wasnt FRACTIONS!! I went for a run after school, but it SUCKED. I did about 3/4 of a mile, and then had to stop. I couldnt breath, I felt so dead. I now have my mom's Christmas present bought!! Just need to buy something for my grandma and brother.

Also, I wanna try some sweet new workouts/recipes/books this winter. I know that soon I will have noone to really hang out with once it gets crappy, and of course a ton of my friends here in Sandtown are married/two are pregnant, so I am soon gonna have nothing fun to do. Any new ideas to help me jazz up my life?!