End of the Year Survey

I havent showered or worked out yet today. Ive made this:http://www.bunsinmyoven.com/2012/04/15/chocolate-chip-cookie-dough-dip/     for tonight and at twelve I am going to make my meatballs for tonight.  I am so excited to go hang out with my friends tonight for NYE.  I am SUPER bummed though that I dont get to spend the evening with my boyfriend :(  It definitely kind of sucks but o well.

I got this survey off my friends blog and so I decided to do it as well :)

1. What did you do in 2012 that you'd never done before?

I worked at a daycare, got a BOYFRIEND, went night sledding, made a cheesecake, did the Daniel Fast, chaperoned 4 youth events, ran a half marathon!

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I did want to stop eating sugar but that didnt happen.  I will more than likely make one to lose weight and tone up but we will see.  

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My friends Whitney, Leah, Jen, Katie...I could keep going but the list would be INSANE!!

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No, thank god.

5. What countries did you visit?

I stayed in the great ol' USA

6. What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?

Full time teaching job. An engagement ring. A bigger trust in God. 

7. What dates from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
July 8th....the day CJ and I started dating.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Running a half marathon!

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not really sure

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Other than colds nope

11. What was the best thing you bought?

I really havent bought anything cool for myself in a long time :/

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

Not a clue

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Election, CT shooting

14. Where did most of your money go?
Loans, a couple I support for CRU, and little kiddos

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Running a half marathon, seeing God bringing a guy into my life, the youth kids and their relationship with God.

16. What song will always remind you of 2012?
A few worship songs I suppose.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? happier
b) thinner or fatter? I think about the same, maybe more muscle though
c) richer or poorer? richer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

Been healthier, stronger, thinner, paid off more of my student loans

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

Being down on myself. Complaining about stupid stuff and trying to not be so down about myself and life

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

I spent it with my mom, grandma and brother at my mom's house.

21. Did you fall in love in 2012?

Yes I did :) and I hope I dont fall out of love with CJ ever.

22. How many one-night stands?
None.

23. What was your favorite TV program?

Greys Anatomy, Parenthood, Big Bang Theory, Last Man Standing, Secret Life of the American Teenager, Teen Mom One and Two...I think that is it.

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

Not really

25. What was the best book you read?

Hunger Games and prolly a few of the Karen Kingsbury books I read as well

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?

None

27. What did you want and get?

A boyfriend. Clothes. Purse

28. What did you want and not get?

Teaching Job. Skinny stomach. Ring

29. What was your favorite film of this year?

Not really sure

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned the BIG 25 on Dec. 4th. I went to lunch with my mom and then went and watched CJ play dartball that night

31.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

If I hadn't complained and not made an effort to find more schools hiring or even get a thin sexy body I want

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2012?

Its whatever...except I did discover Old Navy clothes look really good on me so oops!

33. What kept you sane?

God

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Not sure

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
Election Year. Fiscal Issue. and lots of other things I suppose that I really didnt pay attention to

36. Who did you miss?

Dad

37. Who was the best new person you met?

Olivia from the daycare I worked at this summer

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012.
To trust God and to know that He will provide for your every need.

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
Dont have one and my computer is about to die so no time to look for one!

Blah

This is my 25th Christmas.  I got a giftcard to Target, OSU shirts, Old Navy clothes, a scarf, bath stuff, purse, a cd, and a few random things in my stocking.

I am having a bad day.  My brother and grandma left a day early because here in OHIO we are suppose to get 12 inches of snow tomorrow.  I miss my dad. I hate that people leave. I want to see my boyfriend. I just feel like everything in my life isnt going how I want it.  I dont want to eat dinner. I cant stop crying. I want everything that God has for me to just fall into my lap because I am tired, so tired of not getting anything I want in life :/  Im ready for something awesome to happen in my life.

On my knees

Im on my knees for those 20 babies that are up in heaven with Jesus.  My heart is still broken over the tragedy that happened in Newtown, CT.  I am praying for the families who lost loved one on Friday.  As a teacher, I know that I would have been like Victoria and had the gunman take my life over my students.  I would have protected me with my own life.  All I have to say is that I hope this really causes people to love more, to be more kind and to really get on their knees and start a relationship with God

Where is the SNOW?!

I need to note that it is December 9th and it is RAINING!! Umm OHIO where the frick is your SNOW?!  I want SNOW!!! We didnt get any LAST year and you let me down :(  You best show up this year or else I am moving to a state where they get SNOW!!!   I am a very disappointed OHIO resident right now :/

25 Years of life on here

I woke up at 5:30 on my 25th birthday.....I didnt get anything subbing wise.  I got my birthday present from my mom in a Tinkerbell bag---a gift card to buy a pair of jeans, a necklace and then a shirt.  I ate granola, ran 2 miles, and took a shower. I am going to lunch with my mom and then tonight I will get to see CJ :)  Who knows what else I will do on my birthday.  I cant believe I have been alive for a quarter of a century!! EEK!

Love you all :)

Thunderstorms in December?

My Thanksgiving was rough. I missed my dad. I cried a ton that week :/  I totally have messed up my emotions and everything is totally out of whack :/

Subbing is going well. Paying off my debt is something I am really working on right now.  Cj and I are amazing.  My ministry I work with is great. I love my friends. I am really working on myself right now. I need to work on seeing myself as beautiful, that I am here to love others and not be such a debbie downer. I need to SEE the plan God has for me. I cant dwell on my negative parts of my life.  Two days till my 25th birthday. I really dont know what else to say.

Heavy Heart and Spiritual Fed

Today is my third day of not subbing this month. I've made muffins this morning. I've been on the verge of tears.  Subbing is okay, but I'm definitely ready for my own classroom, my own lesson plans, rules, discipline and everything else that goes with teaching. Working out is alright. I did eat like I had a tapeworm last night though and it sucked. I wanted to make myself throw up but I didn't do it.  CJ and I are well. Although, I am ready for that next step....engagement and he isn't. He isn't even close and I am being respectful of that. I definitely don't want to ruin the relationship that we have.

Thanksgiving is in 7 days. In 7 days I will be sitting at a table with my mom, brother and grandma.  CJ may be joining us.  Sometimes I feel like I may be spending my last one with my grandma.  I sometimes am not ready for the day that a guy joins us....or the day my brother brings home a lucky lady whom he loves.  I still sometimes miss my daddy and my grandpa, but I know for sure one day I will see my grandpa again!!

This past weekend I went to Reach with the youth group and the Lord totally touched my life.  The speaker was talking about relationships with our fathers.  I know for a fact that the Lord knew what Pat was going to be speak about and that I was suppose to be there. Pat had everyone close their eyes.  He asked the ladies to raise their hands if they never danced with their father. I never did and I realized right then that I never will.    Well then he made the ladies who never danced with their fathers to put their arms up and to dance with their heavenly father. Im not going to lie....when Pat said that I thought in my head man he is making us do something silly I dont wanna do this.  They started to play How he Loves and I started to dance with the music, and I didn't even begin to sing.  I just let the music overtake me. Well then, I began to dance.  While dancing, I then felt the Lord wrap his arms around me.  I was so overwhelmed with this awesome gesture from the Lord that I ended up breaking down and bawling my eyes out. I had to kneel in front of the chair I was sitting in just to let my emotions overtake my body so that I could have a really really good cry.  I still can't believe that the Lord DANCED with me! He cares about me so much that he danced with me. He LOVES me. The Lord really truly LOVES me!!! He LOVES ME!!!!