Work it out:
Tues-3 miles
Wed-nothing(got sonic twice, kill me for all I care)
Today-3 miles
Having this week off from nannying is really making me feel so incredibly bored. I like to be home(no rent or bills) but I have no community here. I have no friends and such. Yesterday I hung out with the youth pastors kids. I took them to get Sonic, went to a bookstore and I got some sunglasses and such. My mom basically got on my case yesterday because I dont have a guy and she thinks I really need to find one.
I have been struggling a little lately with my walk with the Lord. I am still going to church and stuff, but it's been hard to getting into the Word and read. I know that I still have my faith, his love and grace but sometimes I feel like His plan isn't falling into my lap and stuff. I guess Im asking for people to pray for me. I would really love that!!
I really want my hair to be long. I want to be able to braid my hair and wear it really cute.
Im not going to be eating any sweets or junk for 30 days starting today. Can someone keep me accountable and/or want to do this with me? Ill try to post a bible verse everyday!!
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Is it seriously August already?
First off I cant believe it is August already. Insane to think that summer is almost gone!!
I dont have to nanny this week. The grandparents are taking them till today and the mom has the next three days off. Mini vaca for me!!
I tried to turn in my stuff to sub in a school district close to me but I need my sub license. Uhh I wish the world would have told me that before I tried to do all of this crap. Now Im sitting here in my room crying because I am frustrated, and yet I know tears wont get me anywhere. I am mailing out stuff to get my transcripts, and hopefully tomorrow I am going to get a TB test. Why does trying to be a sub so much work than it really needs to be? UGH
I havent worked out since lets see a week ago :( I am such a bad person :( I just want to die or chop my nasty flabby stomach off. Im sick of not being okay with how I look. Why bother if I feel like noone really likes me for who I am.
I may stop blogging. I feel like I am just plain boring on here. Im not really fun. Im not entertaining. I just dont want to feel like I am blogging for myself. I just dont know what else to do on here. Im sorry if Im boring, or always venting, but I just want to be real. I want my heart to be seen for who I truly am.
I dont have to nanny this week. The grandparents are taking them till today and the mom has the next three days off. Mini vaca for me!!
I tried to turn in my stuff to sub in a school district close to me but I need my sub license. Uhh I wish the world would have told me that before I tried to do all of this crap. Now Im sitting here in my room crying because I am frustrated, and yet I know tears wont get me anywhere. I am mailing out stuff to get my transcripts, and hopefully tomorrow I am going to get a TB test. Why does trying to be a sub so much work than it really needs to be? UGH
I havent worked out since lets see a week ago :( I am such a bad person :( I just want to die or chop my nasty flabby stomach off. Im sick of not being okay with how I look. Why bother if I feel like noone really likes me for who I am.
I may stop blogging. I feel like I am just plain boring on here. Im not really fun. Im not entertaining. I just dont want to feel like I am blogging for myself. I just dont know what else to do on here. Im sorry if Im boring, or always venting, but I just want to be real. I want my heart to be seen for who I truly am.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Never eating Chipotle ever again :(
Work it out:
Tues: 20-20-20
Wed:Nothing
Thursday: Working out after nannying
I survived going to the zoo with Lily and Jack yesterday. We didnt have any fights, other than Jack mocking me around 2PM, but hey we lived.
Yes I ate Chipotle last night, and then about an hour afterwards I got sick :( I still feel really crappy. I have had a migraine since Tuesday and it wont go away :( I just wanna feel better. I am def. eating light today. I am going to the rec after work today. If I feel better by then. If not then Ill just come home and go to bed :(
Does anyone have tips on how to tone up problem areas(thighs, butts, stomachs) I just am so sick of not being happy. I am crying right now thinking about it. I didnt eat sweets for a year(started summer of 09 and ended it like June 10) and I cant seem to get myself off of them again :( I dont drink pop, really dont eat pasta or breads. My down fault of life is sweets :(
Please pray for me.
Next time I post, Im gonna share about my faith. Please leave questions about anything again :)
Tues: 20-20-20
Wed:Nothing
Thursday: Working out after nannying
I survived going to the zoo with Lily and Jack yesterday. We didnt have any fights, other than Jack mocking me around 2PM, but hey we lived.
Yes I ate Chipotle last night, and then about an hour afterwards I got sick :( I still feel really crappy. I have had a migraine since Tuesday and it wont go away :( I just wanna feel better. I am def. eating light today. I am going to the rec after work today. If I feel better by then. If not then Ill just come home and go to bed :(
Does anyone have tips on how to tone up problem areas(thighs, butts, stomachs) I just am so sick of not being happy. I am crying right now thinking about it. I didnt eat sweets for a year(started summer of 09 and ended it like June 10) and I cant seem to get myself off of them again :( I dont drink pop, really dont eat pasta or breads. My down fault of life is sweets :(
Please pray for me.
Next time I post, Im gonna share about my faith. Please leave questions about anything again :)
Monday, July 25, 2011
When your Faith seems to Fail
Work it out:
Sat-abs
Sunday-30 minutes of elliptical and bike
Monday-look at Sunday
Yesterday I went to church in the morning. I placed my things in my usual pew and then went to the bathroom. I came back, and a bunch of high schoolers were in the row. Well during the first worship song, more came to the row and basically I was sitting in the middle of the aisle. I got kicked out of the row. I grabbed my bible, journal, and purse and was going to just head home. My friend Jordon's mom was sitting behind me and told me to sit with her. I started to cry. I had no motivation to sing worship songs or be in church. Lately I have been feeling really unwanted, unworthy and unloved. I'm not sure if its because I dont have much community at home, or because I dont feel like Im getting fed. Yes I read my bible, and journal, but I dont feel like I am getting poured into anymore. I hate living at home. My family isnt Christian, so I feel so trapped and not one of them. I HATE living at home with my mom and brother. It really sucks. The house reminds me so much of dad, and its so incredibly hard. I want to move out, but I cant afford it. Yes my faith in God is my own. I did learn how to be a Christ follower on my own, but sometimes its so hard when you dont have much encouragement, not much really going into you.
Q and A Time:
Are your sibling(s) younger or older than you?
I have a brother who is 20. He is about 3 years younger than me. His name is Michael, and he attends THE Ohio State University where he is majoring in Economics.
What's your favorite thing to do to relax?
My favorite thing to do to relax is read a book, or listen to Pandora Music
Do you have any pets?
We had a cat Muffy until I was 15, but I havent had one since. I do want one sometime soon though!
Post more Questions for me to answer :)
Sat-abs
Sunday-30 minutes of elliptical and bike
Monday-look at Sunday
Yesterday I went to church in the morning. I placed my things in my usual pew and then went to the bathroom. I came back, and a bunch of high schoolers were in the row. Well during the first worship song, more came to the row and basically I was sitting in the middle of the aisle. I got kicked out of the row. I grabbed my bible, journal, and purse and was going to just head home. My friend Jordon's mom was sitting behind me and told me to sit with her. I started to cry. I had no motivation to sing worship songs or be in church. Lately I have been feeling really unwanted, unworthy and unloved. I'm not sure if its because I dont have much community at home, or because I dont feel like Im getting fed. Yes I read my bible, and journal, but I dont feel like I am getting poured into anymore. I hate living at home. My family isnt Christian, so I feel so trapped and not one of them. I HATE living at home with my mom and brother. It really sucks. The house reminds me so much of dad, and its so incredibly hard. I want to move out, but I cant afford it. Yes my faith in God is my own. I did learn how to be a Christ follower on my own, but sometimes its so hard when you dont have much encouragement, not much really going into you.
Q and A Time:
Are your sibling(s) younger or older than you?
I have a brother who is 20. He is about 3 years younger than me. His name is Michael, and he attends THE Ohio State University where he is majoring in Economics.
What's your favorite thing to do to relax?
My favorite thing to do to relax is read a book, or listen to Pandora Music
Do you have any pets?
We had a cat Muffy until I was 15, but I havent had one since. I do want one sometime soon though!
Post more Questions for me to answer :)
Saturday, July 23, 2011
I did it
Well I think the Praxis today went well!! I felt really calm. One of the case studies I had, I have had it before, so I knew how to answer it :) I recognized about 10-15 of the multiple choice questions.
I havent been working out lately because it has been really hot outside. I dont want to pass out. I have passed out before from being overheated so I dont want that to happen again. I also have not had much motivation to work out. I just wish I had a workout buddy or something. Im not feeling it, I havent had time this week because of VBS, and I just dont have motivation.
So people I have noticed have been doing a Q and A on their blogs. I want to do it!! Leave me questions about anything-school, family, My relationship with the Lord, sports, things I did in high school, struggles I have, whatever you want. Email me or leave a comment.
I havent been working out lately because it has been really hot outside. I dont want to pass out. I have passed out before from being overheated so I dont want that to happen again. I also have not had much motivation to work out. I just wish I had a workout buddy or something. Im not feeling it, I havent had time this week because of VBS, and I just dont have motivation.
So people I have noticed have been doing a Q and A on their blogs. I want to do it!! Leave me questions about anything-school, family, My relationship with the Lord, sports, things I did in high school, struggles I have, whatever you want. Email me or leave a comment.
This is Yours
I havent done any workout this week :( Hopefully tonight!
This week was so crazy. Tuesday-Friday I nannied and had VBS. Needless to say I barely had time to blog, workout or even eat. Im so glad that they fed the workers this week at VBS or else I was not going to be having dinner all week.
Taking my Praxis 2 today at 11. I am then moving some MORE stuff out of my apartment and then going to be a lazy bum at home. May organize some stuff and then do laundry. Whoo! Im a party animal! haha Im trusting that God has a HUGE plan for my life and that I WILL get a 166 today!!!
Slowing getting things ready so that I can try to sub this fall.
BCI/FBI-check!
Perkins School District App-
Renhill for Sandusky/Huron-
This week was so crazy. Tuesday-Friday I nannied and had VBS. Needless to say I barely had time to blog, workout or even eat. Im so glad that they fed the workers this week at VBS or else I was not going to be having dinner all week.
Taking my Praxis 2 today at 11. I am then moving some MORE stuff out of my apartment and then going to be a lazy bum at home. May organize some stuff and then do laundry. Whoo! Im a party animal! haha Im trusting that God has a HUGE plan for my life and that I WILL get a 166 today!!!
Slowing getting things ready so that I can try to sub this fall.
BCI/FBI-check!
Perkins School District App-
Renhill for Sandusky/Huron-
Monday, July 18, 2011
Ho Hum!
Work it out:
Wed-two miles
Thursday-nothing
Friday-nothing
Saturday-ran around with a 3 yr old for like 2 hours
Sunday-Nodda
Monday-Possibly doing yoga
Wednesday night I got to help lead worship at a bible study I went to. It was so much fun! I hope I get to lead worship again soon!!
Thursday I had to nanny, and I basically studied for my Praxis like all day. The kids were playing with friends so yeah.
Friday went to Imagination Station, and we had to leave because the boy had a HUGE tantrum and I had to literally drag him out. I had all sorts of people staring at us while we were trying to leave. Needless to say I was so embarrassed.
Saturday, I went and saw Harry Potter with my mom and brother, hung out with two girls for a few hours(hello ice cream) and then ate dinner with their family.
Yesterday I went to church, then helped Meg(the Youth pastors wife) set up her room for Vacation Bible School. It starts today! Im so excited I am helping to lead worship this week. I cant wait to show these little children how to worship a living God!!
I was going to run this morning, but it waslike 83 at 750 this morning so I said UH no thanks!! I am KILLING for a good run though. I ate ice cream twice on Saturday(someone please bury me now). I am hoping to get some sun today!! I dont have to nanny today. Whoo!! I went to the bank and then to get my BCI/FBI done(so I can sub in the fall)
I ate only cereal yesterday. I was barely hungry all day and that is basically all that sounded good. I know I am such a loser. hah
It is suppose to be in the high 90s all week. I hope I can survive this weather. Def. NOT going to try to run if its hot, I cant afford to risk it.(I have been known to pass out in the hot heat(gymnastics))
Readers, please be safe in this heat this week! I dont want to hear any sad stories of someone passing out, or throwing up because they got overheated. Be safe!!
Wed-two miles
Thursday-nothing
Friday-nothing
Saturday-ran around with a 3 yr old for like 2 hours
Sunday-Nodda
Monday-Possibly doing yoga
Wednesday night I got to help lead worship at a bible study I went to. It was so much fun! I hope I get to lead worship again soon!!
Thursday I had to nanny, and I basically studied for my Praxis like all day. The kids were playing with friends so yeah.
Friday went to Imagination Station, and we had to leave because the boy had a HUGE tantrum and I had to literally drag him out. I had all sorts of people staring at us while we were trying to leave. Needless to say I was so embarrassed.
Saturday, I went and saw Harry Potter with my mom and brother, hung out with two girls for a few hours(hello ice cream) and then ate dinner with their family.
Yesterday I went to church, then helped Meg(the Youth pastors wife) set up her room for Vacation Bible School. It starts today! Im so excited I am helping to lead worship this week. I cant wait to show these little children how to worship a living God!!
I was going to run this morning, but it waslike 83 at 750 this morning so I said UH no thanks!! I am KILLING for a good run though. I ate ice cream twice on Saturday(someone please bury me now). I am hoping to get some sun today!! I dont have to nanny today. Whoo!! I went to the bank and then to get my BCI/FBI done(so I can sub in the fall)
I ate only cereal yesterday. I was barely hungry all day and that is basically all that sounded good. I know I am such a loser. hah
It is suppose to be in the high 90s all week. I hope I can survive this weather. Def. NOT going to try to run if its hot, I cant afford to risk it.(I have been known to pass out in the hot heat(gymnastics))
Readers, please be safe in this heat this week! I dont want to hear any sad stories of someone passing out, or throwing up because they got overheated. Be safe!!
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