Thoughts

I have things I want to say but I dont feel like blogging about it.  Im at a point in my life that I just am shutting the world out and am bottling my thoughts and such inside of me.  All I can say is that Im subbing four days again this week....I have a meeting about Belize tomorrow and Saturday I am going to a wedding in Fort Wayne.  Please just pray for me. Thanks

11 yrs ago

11 years ago I was in 8th grade sitting in computer class when another teacher came up to the computer teacher and told her that a plane hit a tower in NYC.  Then when I got to English, our teacher flipped on the t.v. as the second tower was getting hit.  Its so crazy to think about what I was doing and such while such a tragic thing happened to our nation.

Labor day I hung out with a couple from my church.  Tuesday I hung out with Meg.  Wed I subbed and then went to Axiom. Thursday I subbed and then went to choir.  Friday I did nothing and then I went downtown with CJ to look at old cars.  Saturday I hung out with Kinsey all day.  Sunday I went with Pastor Tim, two of his kids, and CJ to a camp to pick up some of the young girls in our church from camp.  I went to a meeting and ate a HUGE slice of a cake called Oreo cake and then went over to a couples house with CJ and our friend Libby to hang out with some people.  Yesterday I subbed in the morning and then hung out with Meg all day.  Meg, Tim and their three kids are seriously a HUGE part of my life!!  It really means a lot to me to have people in my life who love and care about me.

Running is okay. I think I am going to sign up for the Glass City Half again...this time I will run it with my friend Erin!!!  EEEK!  God and I are doing well.  I think I am going to go on a mission trip next summer :)  Cj and I are great.  We haven't had a fight yet and we have been going out for a little over two months now.

Clinging to hope

You guys it is September!!!  What the heck?!  The last few days of August was filled with finishing helping Meg get everything ready for the garage sale at her parents!!!!  That Friday evening I hung out with CJ and we were going to go bowling but ended up going to Steak N Shake.  Last weekend I went to watch Joel play soccer but he FREAKED. I ended up going to a worship thing that Saturday night. Sunday was church and then the mud pit with the youth group. Let's just say I was NASTY!  CJ and I were then invited over to Tim and Meg's to hang out with some other couples and eat pizza. It was a lot of fun!  Monday I babysat the Smelcer kiddos while their dad went to a baseball game and their mom was at work.    Tuesday I subbed. Wednesday I subbed. Thursday I hung out with Meg and then watched her kiddos.  Friday I went to a football game and then yesterday I hung out with my mom and then babysat.  Today I have church this morning but not sure what I am doing the rest of the day or even tomorrow.  

Can anyone tell me some stuff to do to tone my arms, legs, butt and stomach?  I seriously just need something NEW in my workouts.  I feel like I havent been seeing any results and I have been eating really decent.  *SIGH*  

I really dont have any friends here. I feel so lonely. I dont even know why having a blog is helping me. It just makes me feel even more depressed.  Blah.

Just trying to swim

Last Tuesday I was in Toledo and my friend Lauren's mom and aunt did a mock interview with me that night. Wednesday was my interview. I totally flopped it. Half of the questions I was asked I wasn't sure how to answer because I never experienced what they asked me. So I guess I will be subbing for another year.  That evening I hung out with CJ.
Thursday I went to the Smelcers and helped Meg then laid out with my friend Becki at the beach and then watched the Smelcer kiddos.  Friday I went canoeing with the youth group and then watched CJ's two softball games which they WON :)  Saturday I went to a worship experience thing at my church from 10-1 and then helped Meg the rest of the evening.  Sunday I had church, the church picnic and then helped Meg till like midnight. Yesterday I was at her house from 10-9.  Meg is seriously a HUGE blessing in my life.  I love her and her family. They are seriously incredible.
Running is okay. I need to find a race or something because I am getting really bored with it :/
Jesus and I are doing good. Lately though I have been feeling bored with my reading and quiet time.  I dont know how to get it spiced up :/
CJ and I are doing great.  Hopefully soon I will post a picture up here.  Lately I just havent been knowing what to say on my blog. No one really reads my posts and I feel like noone reads my blog anymore.  Maybe I should just get rid of it? Not sure what to do.

Need prayers

Saturday I went to a bridal shower, and then hung out with the Smelcers the whole evening.  It was great.  Tim and Meg are seriously so amazing in my life :)  They are the spiritual parents I never had growing up!!
Yesterday I went to church, then youth where I saw kids run thru mud, run over tires, slide down a "cave" climb over a hay bale and find puzzle pieces in baby pools full of ramen noddles! haha  I then went to the derby last night with CJ and a bunch of people from Axiom. It was really fun, even though I didnt wanna be there!!
Today I went to the Smelcers and helped Meg price tag a bunch of baby clothes and then I hung out with her kiddos all afternoon. I am writing this blog post because on Wednesday I have an interview in Wednesday.  I am nervous, scared, un confident and just not sure this is going to happen to me. If not, then I do have like 6 school districts I am going to be subbing in so I guess I would most definitely be getting jobs all fall.  Thursday I am hanging out with one of my "adopted" mommas and then on Friday I am going canoeing with the youth group.  Crazy busy week!!!  Prayers for me would be so appreciated.

Whirlwind of life!!!

Lets see here:  The 23rd-the 27th I worked a ton at the daycare. The 27th was my last day there till like Sept/Oct.  School is gonna start soon EEK!!
28th-I went to Emily and Mel's wedding and it was BEAUTIFUL!!!!
29th-I went to church and helped with water wars---which involved tires.
30th-did nothing
31st-dentist
1st-was with the smelcers all day long :)
2nd-went to the zoo and then Cj and I became official bf/gf that night :)
3rd-went to the guys softball game and slept at libbys :)
4th-got brunch with mom and libby
5th-church all day long
6th-hung with the smelcers
7th-babysat the smelcers
8th-today I was in Cincinnati helping my friend Chelsea set up her classroom it is SOO cute :)

My life is super boring and I am cutting out some foods in my diet bc i just feel unhappy about my weight and  i really need to tone up my stomach

You Make me Happy!!

So since the last time I posted I have been working a TON, watering my youth pastor wives' flowers, running and then of course hanging out with my guy friend CJ.  O man he puts a smile on my face. He brings something out in me that no other person has. I mean, CJ is the first guy who may potentially become my boyfriend and we really are taking this SUPER slow.  We are both relying on God and we are doing everything we can to make sure we don't interfere with the other person.  I think that one day he is going to ask me to be his girlfriend, but until that happens I am just really enjoying his company and hanging out and everything.  Lately while we have been talking and hanging out he has been using words that have been leaning to the future and o man it is totally IDK not really freaking me out, but just making me feel like this may be something I have always been waiting for :)
I cant believe that next Friday I am done at the daycare and off to subbing again. I am actually going to be adding two more schools to my list so that will bring me up to 7 schools I can sub in! Today was a crappy day at work. Lets just say that a girl said some nasty things to me and it made me cry.
This week is just a lot of work, watering the plants again, dinner with mom and brother tomorrow and then babysitting on Thursday.  Saturday I have a wedding to attend to for two college friends :) SO excited for Emily and Mel!!!