Purple bracelets

I went home Friday, back to lovely Cedar Point town, applied for some jobs ( so far no luck) then just kind of did nothing all day. I went to a wedding reception yesterday and then drove back to Toledo last night for a birthday party. I drove back home this morning and then went to church. Im so tired of not having a job. I had a SERIOUS fat day today and Im surprised I dont look like a whale. Totally wish I was thin and pretty like some of you guys who follow my blog but o well trying to become more positive about the way i look and its hard.

Im sick of rain. I thought I lived in Ohio, but Seattle?!

Need to VENT

This is a venting post and if noone reads it, then I dont care. No one reads my blog anyway, so what is the point?
I am SUCH a failure. I cant find a summer job. I have applied to 15 places and noone has called me or looked at my application and Im losing hope. I'm losing the desire to be here, to be alive. I am trying SOO hard to lose weight and yet I feel as big as a whale. My summer clothes barely fit me, so I need to eat less and work out more run more and more. I cant afford more shorts or capris. I try so hard to like myself and I cant. I hate the way I look and I cant seem to see myself the Lord made me to be. I HATE living alone. I hate that I graduated. I feel like I dont have any friends, any fellowship, anyone to plug into me and my life. I feel like a bum, all I do is sit in my apartment and watch tv shows on my laptop or on the series I have on DVD. I hate that my dad is dead. It KILLS me inside that I cant have a hug, cant call him, cant see him when I go home tomorrow. I hate that my mom isnt a Christian, I hate that my brother is at school has a girlfriend has a job has success and I have no boyfriend no job nothing.
This is a vent, I am just feeling depressed and lonely and just not worth anything that I am trying to get. I am a failure and I am really trying. Trying my hardest.Please dont worry about me.

Some photos from the weekend and before finals weekend as well!

One of my best friends, whom graduated with his bachelor of Science in Biology on Sunday too and is going to become a Doctor! Go Allen!!



We were at a bonfire at Allens the weekend before finals started and it was FREEZING out and we were up in MI and Allen LOVES Michigan and decided to give me his NASTY hoodie. Needless to say, Erin and I are Buckeye fans all the WAY!!



My cap my students signed.



This is my brother, Mike, who goes to Ohio State and drove 3 hours to watch me graduate :)




These are some of the girls that were in the education program with me..we survived and stuck with each other for 2 years!




I believe I am getting ready to go get my diploma from the stage!!


I am starting to get the hang out posting pictures on this blog! Go me :) Pray I find a job soon. I have been running everyday since Thursday and its starting to become a habit and a life stress reliever. I am becoming bored tho sitting in my apartment in Toledo with no friends no school and nothing to do.

I did it!

I'm waiting for my mom to post my graduation pictures online and then I will post them onto my blog so you can see me in my cap and gown :)

I visited my class this morning, and they all hugged me, made me cards, give me a class gift, and I took a picture with them, that I cant post because they are students and all. But I will say they are all CUTE :)

Commencement was 2 1/2 hours long, and boy did I wanted it to end when I was done walking across that stage. I cant believe I am a graduate, I mean I do have to wait 30-45 days until that diploma is mailed home, but I am still in awe I graduated. I still need to take Praxis 2(July 23rd baby) and then once I pass that I can apply for my teaching licensure. I am praying that I can pass it. I still CANT find a job--I am getting sad and depressed about it. I will do ANYTHING, babysit, clean, work wherever I can. RAWR! LORD, please give me a job soon or else I'm going to go INSANE.

Its beautiful outside(beware it is FREEZING out tho) I'm going to go run soon and then make a salad for lunch. I need something to entertain me soon or else I'm going to go CRAZY!

xx

O glorious sun!!

A. Age: 23
B. Bed size: Twin
C. Chore you hate: Vacuuming my apartment
D. Dogs: I’ve never had a dog, but maybe when I get married someday(such a desire in my life) I will have one
E. Essential start to your day: Listening to worship music and my quiet time. If I don’t do this I am seriously such a crank and my life usually is a disaster.
F. Favorite color: Blue
G. Gold or Silver: White Gold
H. Height: 5″ exactly. Yes I know I am a shorty
I. Instruments you play: I was in the choir in middle school and high school, does that count? I played hand bells Junior and Senior year of High school for our Bell Choir.
J. Job title: Lets see, I cant say student after May 8th(graduation) so a job seeker and I cant find one 
K. Kids: None, but I’ll take your kids from your hands and play with them 
L. Live: School time-Toledo. Im from Sandusky
M. Mom’s name: Susan
N. Nickname: My dad called me Morning Glory. I sometimes get Al, Allie G, Roo(gymnast nickname) but my real name is Alicia
O. Overnight hospital stays: None
P. Pet peeve: People who walk too slow, people who go UNDER the speed limit
Q. Quote from a movie: “If you’re a bird, I’m a bird" Notebook!
R. Righty or Lefty: Righty
S. Siblings: 1 younger sibling, a brother and he goes to THE Ohio State University
T. Time you wake up: during student teaching—5:30 AM. Saturdays whenever I want and Sundays at 7:45
U. Underwear: Sure. I wear them.
V. Vegetables you don’t like: LOVE them!!
W. What makes you run late: I’m never late to anything
X-rays you’ve had: teeth, knee, shoulder, neck
Yummy food you make: uhhhh I guess desserts!
Z. Favorite zoo animal: Lemurs!


I'm getting annoyed with job hunting..can I just PLEASE have one?! GRRRR!!! I cant believe I graduate tomorrow. I am going to a friend's house tonight and I'm excited to hang out with her before she moves to Cincinnati! Mom, grandma and Mike are coming up tonight! Anything fun I can do to change my workout plan? Diet plan? Schedule with running? Anything interesting you want to know about me????

I.AM.DONE :)

Yes you read that correctly---I am DONE with student teaching.classes.finals(ha who am I kidding I didnt have any!!) and on Sunday I will be a college graduate :) :)

I am going into my classroom for a few hours on Monday, and then going back in June for a field trip, but I am indeed DONE with everything!!! Yeah!!!!

I got a card, lemon bars, and flowers today from a few students. On Monday, I am going to take a class picture with them because uh they were AMAZING :) Plus I wanna remember them!!

I ran like 4-5 miles with 2 friends in this beautiful weather we have in Toledo. I am going to get Chipotle tonight and then go a funderraiser for a few friends who are going on mission trips this summer. I have eaten sweets every.day.this week and today I realized why. Aunt Flo decided to visit the weekend of commencement. Gee thanks Aunt Flo. Off to dry my hair and try to do something with it!

xx

Its May already?!

I will post the recipe for the Lemon bars this weekend if someone would like it :)

I graduate in 6 days and I cant find a summer job :( Im freaking out and I even had a break down about it today :( LORD, PLEASE send one my way :(

I need to lose some more weight, any tips of what I can cut out of my diet(I dont drink pop, I on occasion eat desserts, I dont really eat breads/pastas/rice and yet I still feel as big as a whale) when school ends, I am back to running 6 days a week, running 2-3 days a week is KILLING me. BOO Sorry Im being so critical on myself, I just idk have a really bad self image and have such a low self esteem. Sometimes when I feel people look the way I want to look, it really kills me inside. UGH

I only have 3 more days of student teaching. I bought a new cd today--Christ August. IDK what else to say other than I observed a 6th grade class today and I LOVED it, so wish I was in middle education.